Grief
Reminiscing
There was a period of time where I was really finding my groove with eating habits that supported my goals. In that time, I had discovered a particular ice cream bar – this salted caramel halo top keto pop that was divine. Well, as divine as a reduced fat and sugar alternative dessert can be.…
Read MoreMy Biggest Regret
Being a parent is vulnerable. For the most part, I feel good about how I’ve done so far as a parent. Sure, I’ve made mistakes and had many moments I’m not proud of. But overall, I think I have done more good than harm with my children. And yet… I have a big capital R…
Read MoreThe Last Bite of Ice Cream
Watching your child grow up is like opening a perfectly selected gift and eating the last bite of ice cream. It’s a delightful privilege and a blessing. And it’s wrought with grief. Seven. So much bigger than six. Six is first grade. Just out of kindergarten, still little enough to run up and hug and…
Read More10th Anniversary
Ten years ago today, I stood in front of 250 people and promised forever to a man I loved completely. I remember the strangest details. Getting bagels in the morning with my maid of honor. My future sister in law scolding me to smile at the salon. Nervously waiting with my dad before walking down…
Read MoreWith Great Joy Comes Great Sorrow
Last year, I read this open letter to a stepmom and wrestled with all of my feelings about it. First, I wanted to throat-punch the author. Then, I wanted a relationship like that with “my” stepmom. Finally, the despair of deep acceptance that I’ll never have that kind of relationship with my son’s stepmom. The…
Read MoreSurprises Abound
You just never know when you’re going to be in your room, after getting your kiddo to sleep, and suddenly hear crying. In distress. In need of mama. I really wondered if I was going to have to call the doctor. Poor guy was writhing and couldn’t seem to answer me. I started trying to…
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